'scuze me, mees, would you like en encheelatha?

May 1, 1993

Well, didn't wind up going to the Reggae thing. I'm really bored with life right now. My mom is bugging the living shit out of me. My dad bought a house in Wichita and she's freaking out. She always asks me if something’s wrong. Hell yes, something's wrong. I live at home, I'm 22 and I work as a peon in a Mexican restaurant. I didn't go to college 4 years for this! I guess I'm just waiting for Lady to finish school so we can get married or sumpthin'! I don't know what I'm doing. I'm scared if I do what I want to do, which is work for Disney, she'll leave me cuz she hates long distance... even for a short time. My dad is still trying to wing me a job through one of his employees. I hope it works. If not, I still would like to move down to Orlando and get a job doing something. Even if it is just a monorail job. I just always hoped for something better.

I'm getting tired of hanging around Leah, too. I miss Lady a lot. I just always want to be with her and Leah is no substitute. She's nice and all, but she's 12 years older than I am! We just don't have much in common.

Jenny and Tommy at work just got married last night and my brother had his prom last night, too. I think he got in at like 6:00am. He went with Denise. I don't know if they are dating or not. I don't know much, these days. I know I am so ready to move out that it's almost ridiculous! My room is a shitpit and I don't care! I have no room to put anything, so I just let everything I own sit on the floor. The Disney Store is getting old, too. Well, it's May. I will move out in June. Meanwhile, I keep getting the Dallas Morning News in hopes of a want ad designed for me! Agggh! Well, I think the mailman is here and I have to take a shit. I will call Lady and see how she did on her test this morning. And I will tell her Monica Seles (the tennis player) got stabbed in the back yesterday. How queer.

Where you be goin' wit dat purse, sistah?

April 21, 1993



Oh well, here it is Wednesday again! I worked at Disney all morning and all afternoon, and then it was on to El Chico for the infamous enchilada night. It sucked, but I got $40 in tips.

Anyway, after Disney, about 5:15pm, I saw a black woman running from two white guys. She was stealing something, a purse, I think. They tackled her and then some dopey security guard came along to assist. I left. No witness forms for me to fill out, by Jove! I got to El Chico and Jason the new server didn't show up so I had to take his tables. I was slammed! Anyway, my manager Robin, got pissed cuz I couldn't pre-bus my tables. Sooorrrryyyy!

CAS came into the Disney Store and into El Chico today. I haven't seen her in a few weeks. It's good to know people exist outside of my work environment.

Well, Lady and I are arguing. She's going to one of my frat parties with Roy. She doesn't understand why I am upset. Well, tough titty for her. I pulled out my bottle of Crown and now I'm listening to my Disney CD's and typing away as I anxiously await Speed Racer at 12:00am. Tonite is the exciting conclusion of The Most Dangerous Race. How thrilling. Studs is on in a few; I think I'll pass.

Well, that's all I have to say. I think Leah and I are going to try to catch the Reggae night out at BJ's on Sunday. I want to go the U2 laser thing at UALR, but I'm always working. Grrr! But the cash is rolling in! Gotta go, mahn! Brah! I'll try to spread that around El Chico!

Hey, kids. Want some candy?

April 19, 1993

Well, it's Monday again already! Whew! Friday was crazy. I got off El Chico about 10:30pm. I made close to $60 so I bellied-up at the bar and had a couple. My friend Leah, the hostess, was supposed to meet up with this guy from Jox and go out, but she decided she didn't want to go, so we decided to go have a couple at Shug's. First we bought Smitty some wine coolers. He's 17 or 18, and I remember back in the day when I couldn't get anything, so it wasn't really out of my way. Leah and I went to Shug's and then Cajun's. We stayed until it closed and then she talked me into going to Discovery, which I didn't know was a gay bar. It was so weird, but I was drunk. We had a really good time and wound up leaving about 3:30am. We saw Ken, a depledge from Fayetteville. I had a flat tire out in the parking lot, but luckily I had my pump in the trunk! I called Lady, but I can't really remember what I said.

I felt crappy the next morning, but I got up and Leah and her kids and I went to the zoo all day. Her kids are funny. We went to the little amusement park afterward and that's when I started feeling nauseous. Then I went to work with an ‘I don't give a shit attitude.’ Before that, though, we all went to McDonalds where a weird old man propositioned Leah's kids while she was in the bathroom. Weird stuff.

I didn't make much money that nite, but I went home and went straight to sleep. Sunday, I didn't try too hard either. Leah, Scot (a ZAP) and I went to Backyard Burger during our break. We were really busy! I traded for precloser with Jeff as a favor. I hated it, but I got like 7 hours overtime. That's some serious cash!

Today, I did the Disney thing. I had to take some test on the computer. I passed, eh! Just not the JBS Check part. Oh well. I work tomorrow too. Guess I'd better write some letters and get to bed!

Six Flags is what you wish the world could be...

April 14, 1993


Man, has it been a long day! Ok, my Seinfeld tickets are for the 3rd, but who's keeping track?! I had to work at Disney today from 7am-3pm. We had a sale today so I had to go in early and mark-down prices for hours on end. I didn't really like it. I'm not sure how much I like that job anymore. It's a lot of grunge work, but I need it if I am going to have a career with Walt Disney World. Agggh! El Chico gives me the money, but it wears me out. I'm always tired after I get home. I don't mind waiting tables, it's just the cleaning up afterwards that I hate. Aggggh!

Soon Lady will graduate and I'm going to take her to Dallas. I got a Mickey Mouse sweatshirt today and some more pencils toppers. I sent my resume to both Disney World and Six Flags. I hope something turns up. My diplomas are supposed to be framed and ready on the 27th, so that's about 14 days. I also ordered a Jerky Boys T-Shirt so that should be in a couple of weeks.
It's rainy and chilly today. I'm ready to move out of my house and get on with my life. At least start my life. For some reason this house symbolized being trapped. I feel like I can't begin my life until I am out of here. I still need to pay off my credit cards and then I'll be out of debt. I need new tires and I still have no insurance. It's a nutty world! But, I gotta go so...later!

You're hot to trot, you think you're slicker than grease!

April 6, 1993

Well, my God it has been since December since I've written on this thing. There is about 4 months worth of business to sum up! Anyway, I graduated and got my diploma, which is being framed as we speak, but not without the normal U of A hassle. The Dean's Office didn't think I was eligible for graduation, yet I was, so I had to go up there and bitch until I got my damn way! Anyway, three days later I got my diploma in the mail. If I wouldn't have cause a ruckus I probably would have never gotten it. My Disney diploma is also getting framed.

My friend Tudor is employed in Nashville. I haven't talked with her in awhile. I bet she loves it there. I still have no job. I'm working Monday and Wednesday at the Disney Store in Park Plaza mall. I've been there since February 2nd and I'm at El Chico the other 5 days of the week waiting tables. I've been there since mid-March. It's OK. My plans are now to apply at WDW Guest Relations as soon as I get a stable address. I have to move out in June cuz my parents will be in Wichita. My dad is already there and has been for about a week.

Bahama Mama was last weekend. It was rainy and cold and not as good as year's past, but it was OK. I dropped Lady on her birthday. We went to Spaghetti Warehouse for dinner and I got her a Tigger doll and some other crazy stuff. I'm also looking for things in the Dallas area. Lady accepted a job with Western Merchandisers for $16.8. She still has school until July so I need to get a job myself. I have the Dallas Sunday paper and I check it out every week. Something will turn up.

My room is a pit! Agggh! At least I have a computer now. It is awesome. Nothing much has happened in 4 months, I guess. My big plan is to get a job, move out and LIVE! A ha ha ha ha! How evil.

My bud Psycho is at CastleAFB in California. He gets leave in September and we're planning a road trip to Miami! Lord knows I will be up to it. I need to find a way to make more money at El Chico. I just got $19.50 today and I spent it on disks and a caddy.

I got Beastie Boys "Check Your Head" in the mail from my BMG CD club. Yes! I also have tickets for Seinfeld on June 8! I'm excited, It's so far away, but I have tickets anyway. Well, I guess that's all for now. I'll keep up a lot better now that I can type any time I want to. I sure missed my Macintosh!

The Pajama Jam

December 8, 1992

Christ, here it is... finally. My last day of regular classes, excluding final exams. I just got out of Feature Writing early and I have some time to kill. Lately I have been seriously considering buying a Macintosh LC II. It runs about $1400, without printer! With, I'm sure it's about $1700. Oy! I have to go to Interpersonal Comm. for the last time today. My final in there is next Wednesday the 16th. Then I have a Bowling final I need to review a bit for at 12:30pm and then Editing class at 2:00pm. Tonight is my last night of Death and Dying. I sure hate that class. It makes me crazy sitting in there all the time. It snowed on Sunday. Not very much, but it was a pretty snow. I finally got the CD "Letter to Elise" by the Cure. It was an import from the UK so it cost $10. Oh well. I still don't have a lot of line-ups for jobs. I have a couple of leads, but that's it. My dad may have a job in Wichita. My parents are going there before X-Mas to check it out while I stay at home with my brother. I really don't want to live at home. I suppose my motivation for looking for a job will be gettin out of the house. I rented Flash Gordon the movie and a few of us watched it on the big screen. We had our 3rd annual Pajama Party on Friday. Boy did Lady get sick. She was puking all over the place. It was nast-E! Anyway, I had to clean it up and it about made me ill. I just hope now that I can fit all of my junk into my car and take it home. I bought 20 X-Mas cards to send out. I just hope I have 20 friends to send them to. Well, that's enough for now. My goals are to find a job, buy a Macintosh and get out of the house! Eee! Oh, I went to River City again last Tuesday and got major wasted! Uggh! Too much shitty beer. I don't want to do Jell-O Shots again after the PJ Party!

I'm Gonna Win That Race, Uh Huh Huh!

November 30, 1992

Well, it is Monday once again. I have been so busy lately, it seems. Maybe I have too much to do, I think. Anyway, it's been a pain in the ass to get down here and type. So, whazzup?! I quit my liquor store job a week or so before Thanksgiving. It was a load of my back, I'll say. I still have the dilemma of figuring out if I have to go to court or not. Man, I just want to be out of trouble for once. I finished all my AA's and stuff. Now I just have to worry about getting out of school. I finished my senior thesis last Monday and it was about 9 pages long with 14-point type. Oh well. At least I finished it. I figure I have about 6 actual class days left with about 3 extra days allocated for finals. I don't have a job upon graduation, either. I'm moving back to Little Rock and I'll try to get something while I'm there. I applied for the Disney Store for part-time while I send out my resume. Thanksgiving was this week. I went to LR and then to Tulsa for my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary. I think they liked it. It was a lot of driving. It made me think about family and how mine really doesn't have a lot in common. Weird. Well, my dad has a scheme to go to OKC and visit some people and then to shuffle of to Wichita and interview for a job. At least he has one. For me, I want to get an apartment in LR. I really don't want to live in my house with my family cuz I haven't done it for about 4 years now. I suppose I'll just have to learn the value of patience. Anyway... I went to a Techno Ecstasy party at River City on Tuesday with Lady and Jackson and some tag-alongs. It kinda sucked. I'm worried about Lady. This week I realized how much I really care for her and I would love to spend the rest of my life with her. That's why graduation scares me so much. She'll still be up here and I'll be in LR. My brother asked me if I thought about marriage any. I told him I was 22 and too young for marriage. Maybe I was wrong. I dunno. I'm in DPS and about to type a Death and Dying report for Lady and myself. We tried to go to a funeral together for this project, but it got fucked up. I saw Aladdin too with Lady. I love her so much and she's just about the only thing I think of anymore. I want to get her some good Christmas presents, but right now I can't think of any. We're gonna go to Memphis for New Year's. Or so we've planned. Well, gotta start on these papers. I'll type more later.